The More Love You Make...

“The hardest part of love is to stop searching, and allow love to stumble upon you. Do not seek the crafty eccentric that is love, for it works in very unfeasible ways. When it’s your time to be discovered, Love will find you, and when Love does, lend Love a hand and discover it too!” ~some shit I made up, yeah baby!

Love is the most magnificent phenomenon in the world. Love can open up the gates of heaven right here on earth. Love can bring you pleasure and illumination that you could not have imagined otherwise. Love at its best is uncomplicated and wonderful. It’s like having a best friend and a lover all rolled up in a crazy love burrito. It’s like the greatest thing in the world. But you can’t look for love. You discover it, stumble upon it or fall in it. Which is really strange sounding, actually. Love seems to be the only thing we ever want to “fall in”. I mean, for the most part, besides love; “falling in” something more often than not is something we try to steer clear of in life. It’s also not fun when you’re falling into anything alone, and the other person is looking at you, like: Why are you such a loser?

Recently I’ve been really thinking about what it’s supposed to actually feel like when love is the right fit. Maybe it’s just like the word “Fit”. I mean it in terms of clothing. Like when you go to a dressing room to try on something, but some things are too tight, too big, too long, too short, too blue, too yellow, not yellow enough, that pair of acid washed jeans looked perfect on the rack, but...and that’s kind of how love is.

On the contrary, sometimes you find that perfect outfit, which seems like it was made in the heavens just for you. It fits every inch of your body perfectly, and makes you look ten pounds lighter. That’s kind of what I think it will be like when you meet the right person. You won’t have too think so much, and they will just be tailor made for you, and all the little weird and wonderful things that make you, you. But you have to go through a lot people that don’t fit you first, and you might try to make them fit. OH, YOU’LL TRY! But you’ll fail and fail and fail. Until one day, when it’s the right fit, it’ll be easy.

The truth is, it’s never easy, until it is easy. When that happens, it’s amazing! But, It’s never easy to control our emotions. Sometimes we think we’ve found that perfect person. Except that person doesn’t feel the same way. That’s just the worst feeling in the world. Because we know that they can’t control how anyone feels, but at the same time, why can’t they see what you see? Which is…how utterly amazing you both are together! But they can’t. Cause they don’t feel that way, or they’re gay, or straight, too old, too young, they’re black, or white, or yellow, or they don’t have hair, or bad teeth, or they’re dry funny and you like a different kind of funny. There are a million reasons why people aren’t on the same page, but whatever the reason is, it really sucks ass!

I guess at the end of the day, you have too learn that while you can’t love everyone romantically, you can still deeply care and love people in a friendly way. That’s not always easy to do when you’re waiting for them to realize that way deep down they actually do love you, but if you get over that little hump...You can share a very loving friendship together. However, if you can’t? I highly recommend not having a friendship with that person; because it will be filled with a deep silent pain that will slowly crush your spirit and break your heart.

I guess what I'm grateful for in all of this is, there are lots of clothes to choose from, and when I'm not thinking about it, I'm going to walk into some store and that perfect outfit will be there! It will be so easy, just like love should be, and I won't ever want to take that outfit off. No matter how jaded I get. I'm the most grateful for love, in any form! We have no greater gift in life than to love. Plus, it's a gift that keeps on giving. Because the more love you make, the more love you take.